Roy Is Dead...

long time no write blog lau...
got abit miss blog...hahas...
well...now i will start the story...

u all know that i break up with winnie right?...well now got a guy like her name charles...well i give up loving her because i want her to get someone that is better then me...i know i cant give her what she want...i cant give her happiness...i am hopeless to her...so now got ppl like her i think i will give up...no point loving someone n that someone love you too but u 2 r just friends...do u know how hurt can it be?...i know because i am 1 of them...i still love winnie n winnie still love me...but end out...charles hug her,kiss her,hold her hand...do u know how hurt can that be?

then other thing that is me n *** **...something happen to us now we never even talk...well...i don think i wan to tell y too...it lame...

yesterday my mom say i steal her money but i did not...n do u know it hurt when someone say u steal he/her thing but u did not?it damn fucking hurt!!!!i keep tell her i did not steal her money but she keep say i steal it...that time i wanted to cry but i did not...but the thing that make my cry is...she say if next time she lost money again she will call the police catch me...that what make me cry...so i go my school pants n take out my wallet open it...take out all my money in it...n throw all the money i save to her then i walk out from the house go to the padang...sit alone there...all alone...n there is no one there to care...n i was thinking...what is happiness?what is love?last time when i clp with winnie i know what is happiness n what is love...but yesterday thing happen...n i dono what is happiness what is love??then later my mom sms me n say sorry she take the money n buy thing lau...when she say sorry that time...i say in my heart...i will never forgive u...never...u never take me as your son...u oni take me as a thief...what for i forgive u...i will never....ever...forgive u...never...

today when to school...winnie saw me look sad...so she write something in a paper...but i did not take...because...that time i really don have the mood to see...i wanted to cry in the school...but i did not...

so start from today...roy is dead...at 6 - 3 -2009...who can make me understand what is happiness??who can make me understand what is love??who??until that day happen...mayb i will be alive again...but as from now...Roy Is Dead...